Hi Jennifer-
When I was younger I used to suffer from very very severe OCD like you're desribing. Now almost 19, I deal with it a little better since my OCD surrounded around something happening to my parents. Now my OCD surrounds around something happening to myself like health related, so I know exactly what you are talking about and feeling. I get such severe panic attacks that I've ended up in the hospital several times. I just want you to know you're not alone. I have a similar thing with my mom she's flying to Fla tomorrow and its completely freaking me out, shes the only one who understands my OCD and panic disorder-so its like my lifeline leaving. But this is what I do and what seems to help me and i really hope it will help you too- talk to your husband and explain to him that you're really trying not to feel this way but its horrible what you go through everytime hes not there.Talk about maybe devising a plan where he can check in with you to let you know that he is ok, something of that nature. I think just talking to him and letting him know how severe it is will make you feel better. Good luck
**Ashley