I got sick of my husband being a jerk, and with not smoking anymore it's hard to take a break from him. I decided to go to my moms and get a break, and do some laundry while I was there. Of course I brought both of the babies with me because I'm not allowed to go anywhere without them.

I stayed there, made tacos for everyone, did my laundry, and helped my sister with her baby. Of course my kids were getting a little cranky because it was getting late, all of a sudden everybody (mom and sister) kept asking me to leave saying "I'm on the phone or it's my weekend and I'm trying to relax". They kept asking and asking, they even suggested that I take my son outside till my clothes were done drying. Finally I got so mad (and hurt ), that I took my wet clothes out of the dryer, put my kids in the car, and carried everything out by myself in a hurry. Nobody even offered to help me carry anything out, mom was playing poker and sister was eating chips.

I'm so hurt by this, I escape home to go there because I feel non existent here, then I go over there and was asked to leave over and over. It's like I have no where to go, nobody to help me.

I'm in so much pain from this, I know it's dumb, but I feel awful. I feel alone and on my own. There's no where else to go to get out of the house, it's either Wal Mart or my moms. Now I have no where to go, so I will always be here. Trapped in my own home, trapped in a loveless marriage, and alone.