The problem is that my gut is telling me to just let it go. Or atleast I think that is what my gut is telling me.

I have always been a closed, introverted person. I don't like confrontations and prefer to keep to myself. I have long had problems expressing myself emotionally and even find it hard to talk a lot of the time..

However, rationally I know that there is something more going on and that I need to do something about it and even if there is nothing going on, I'm sure it's better to find out and be certain.

To make matters worse, I find myself too informed but not enough. I know the symptoms of many mental illnesses enough to find many of them, but I don't know enough to find out if they are significant.

To make matters even worse I know of my ignorance, I know I don't have enough information to make a correct judgment. I know how to get any results on the Quizzes (http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/). However many of the questions I can not figure out what I really think.

This again points to the fact I should do something about it, so why arn't I?

This is so frustrating.....

I guess why I am posting here, for some reason I am able to type things which I can't say. I'm hoping that talking here will help me gain the courage to atleast type a message to my mother, or even what to say in the message.

Maybe if I could just pluck up the courage to point her to this thread, but she won't find out till she gets to work and I'm not quite sure I have the ability to wait that long.