I am just going to throw it out there. I have been texting guys and making arrangements to hook up. Its like a drug to me, the attention, the risk, the challenges. I know its wrong but I am so horned up and when my hubby isn't home I want it more, I don't get it. I can also tell because I change my appearance, get irritable and feel like I am floating towards a purpose but that purpose is not known, I just know it will be something good and worthwhile. Last year I was an artist, my paintings were my mark on this world, I could touch ppl with my art and ppl were in awe of my awesomeness.

Question?? Say I follow thru and meet these men, could the possible guilty feelings increase the hypo? To be honest I would much rather not want the attention from these guys, I just wonder if I go and get it out of my system maybe I will be done with them but then will there be others? Ugh I know the right answer but it doesn't change how I feel, doesn't help hubby has been so supportive and sweet to me all this time. Would help if he was being a *** at times like these.