Jenn... my parents are the same as yours! I feel like the black sheep in our family.
I don't have much advice to give to you... But one thing you need to do, is listen to all other persons in your life that really understands you and loves you dearly. Your kids love their mom and your hubby loves you! I love you, my friend! You've got a lot of caring friends here in PC. I know it is not enough... but it's a lot! Let us love you, Jenn!