Okay so T is away this week-he said I could call-so I tried calling earlier and didn't answer but I didn't leave voicemail. Sooo I texted him-which I've never done-and I don't know if he allows it or not...now I'm soo worried he is going to be mad and say its crossing a line...here is what I wrote
Hey T this is Delicate - I have no idea if texting you is extremely inappropriate and boundary crossing? So if it is I'm really sorry and it won't happen again and you can be mad at me...but I know you said we could talk this week while you are away...I tried calling but y'all are probably doing something fun-and I wouldn't ask except I'm having a really rough day-really bad thoughts this morning-the most intense I've had in a long time...and my anxiety is high-and I miss having a session this week : ( if you could call me at some point today? If I'm at work then could you just leave a voicemail? Something to help me through this? I'm trying to hold on but it's tough : (