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Originally Posted by NYCDoglvr
Trip and Double ......... it helps to stand back and question our beliefs. No one deserves to be blasted with rage. I couldn't really get into recovery until I clearly saw the problem is in me. The problem IS me.
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There's absolutely nothing wrong with my beliefs,altho Idk what it is you so clearly think I do believe... Did you see me blasting anybody with rage? No, obviously not, so you must have read it then? Again the answer's no... Which means you are making assumptions about me... Firstly I'll have you know that my rage has been in check for the last 9yrs thank u very much! Motherhood is what I thank for that. 2ndly, The hurt I didn't mean to inflict, was my insecurity, delusions,and paranoia. The retalliation of the normi was the inevitable supersized rejection burger I had to swallow in 1 go without chewing! If you were referring to my adjectives. i.e. Fkn idiots, microscopic, then CLEARLY I was being expressive as there were no CAPS and emoticons to suggest otherwise. It meant they will NEVER understand the effort that I put into appearing emotionally APPROPRIATE. Lastly, you don't have to remind me that I am the PROBLEM, I've been successfully beating myself over the head with that very stick consistantly everyday for the last 8 months...
I know I sound pissed off, I am, but not at you. I'm pissed off at assumptions. People are so quick to assume instead of asking questions. I hate that assumptions even exist.