Hi there EL -- I agree that therapy and talking your way through this might help. Is there a campus counseling center? Or a county clinic? There can be really good people at these, sometimes students trying to get their clinical hours together but they can be empathetic and sincere.

I used to once in a while lose my temper -- and when I lost it, I lost touch with reality. I was not violent. My weapon was words. And somehow, when I had lost touch with all reason, I could say exactly the thing that would deeply wound another person, like letting air out of balloon to watch them deflate. And no amount of apologies can ever fix that.

Two things have helped me, and one of them may be sneered at: First, things levelled off for me after I found a source of spiritual comfort and balance. Second, I was put on an antidepressant, so if anger is depression turned outward, the faucet got turned off. I can still feel angry, of course, but now I can reason my way through the appropriate strategies and whether doing anything is worth it. I haven't had road rage for years.

I wish you all the best in finding the solutions that work for you.