Thank you, I appreciate your kind words. I have talked to my Doctor after the assault. He didn't offer any suggestions to me. He almost made me feel embarrassed. If that makes sense. I can't bring myself to go to him for help now. I have been trying my hardest to seek out therapy. I have been googling like a crazy lady. I can't afford $180/sessions with people who specialize in BPD. I tried another place today. It's just for counseling. I don't believe they are trained psychologists but I thought if I could just get help with my self esteem and anxiety that maybe it will get me to a better functioning state to be able to sort out what I need to do. They turned me away because my mental health issues are to severe. You are right, I am a survivor and I will keep trying.

It's nice to have a place to go where I can read about other people's troubles and not feel alone.

Thank you