Feel like Im losing ground again, though managed to get in shower. BF has company and friend staying downstairs until end of July. This person treats me badly and I wish he would go away. I feel lonely and confused. My T. is onvacation. I slept this afternoon and I think I will go back to bed. All those boys are hiking and I dont want anything to do with them when they return. They totally exclude me in my own space. What is this highschool? I can figure out whether I should let it go or speak up for myself. I am too old for this silliness. HIs friend will be gone tomorrow and his other friend will be gone at end of July but another friend is coming the 3rd.
Ugh. This is a stupid post. I am depressed as ever and being ignored and feeeling invisuble doesnt help. My bf says he wishes they would all go away too, at least Im not alone, but his friend downstairs is paying rent for the summer and he keeps inviting people and they are also my bfs friends so what can I do? I feel weak and stupid and hide in my room. Facing Chains