No one here can diagnose your problems. because though some of us here may be in the therapy profession when we are here we do not practice therapy and diagnosing. Psych central is a support group. we can read what you type and post and make suggestions that may help but for therapy needs you need to contact someone in your local real life area.

My suggestion how do you ask -

If you are not comfortable asking your mom face to face even though you are confident she will get you help -

Print off your post and leave it where your mom will see it. That way you do not need to ask.

Your mom will see it and being that you posted you feel she would get you help she will most likely look around to find the person right for you based on what you wrote.

Hang in there.