1. I will never get anything I want done, EVER. As soon as I want something all the motivation is drained from me and I can't work for it anymore.

2. It's amazing how I can go from being all happy-dappy, to explosive and suicidal to depressive in less than 30 minutes tops. I went off on my sister because she interrupted me while I was falling asleep. She started yelling at me because I left purple hair dye in the bottom of the tub. I was having such a good day that I forgot all about it. Well, I started screaming. Went on a rampage, I threw things, then ran into the kitchen and almost grabbed a knife so I could chop myself up but I resisted the urge and locked myself in my room. I screamed until I felt better. Now I feel worthless.

3. I hate myself a lot more than I realized.
I actually love myself a lot. But I feel ashamed because I love myself too much. Now I hate myself even more.
I feel that the relationship between myself is like an abusive relationship. I try to convince myself that I love me because I love myself, even though my brain and body like to make me suffer.