Well my in laws and I have never had a good relationship. To behonest, they have always been a source of constant stress. They are well to do people and they have indirectly communicated to me that I do not meet their expectations/standards. Ofcourse they would not directly say that, but drop subtle hints. So, in order to keep things peaceful I pretty much do not speak my mind. I am unable to be myself and that kills me inside. Part of me also believe I should do better and be better. So, part of me agrees with them and another part of me hates myself for agreeing and for them making me feel that way. I don't know if all this makes sense.

I am disgusted with myself for not being comfortable with who I am.
Anyways, I have communicated that I will only stay for about seven days.