Angyl, my heart goes out to you. I hope this is helpful: every loving relationship will feel different because they are with different people. It's possible you will grow to love Hussein as you loved Yousef, but it will never feel exactly the same. Nothing feels as exhilarating as the First Love, at lesat that's my experience, but others may have different experiences. There's just something incredibly special about that first one. But love has kissed your life twice and many of us never get that wonderful second chance. Take your time, take it slow, be honest with Hussein and that's really the best you can do. If you want to be happy and loved, let yourself be happy and loved.

Sending hugs,
Anne