Hi KiKi86 and Billi leli, thanks for the welcome. It's nice to have people that I can relate too finally. Our mental health system is outrageous. I understand that you have to be somewhat stable going into that kind of intense therapy. It's 18 weeks, 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. Basically a full time job. What makes me so mad is that I asked for her help to get me ready for this and she decided that she didn't need to see me anymore. I had two months before the program started. I think that she already had it in her head that she couldn't help me so why bother trying? I don't know if that's BPD thinking. That was 5 months ago and I'm still upset about it. I'm sorry if I seem like I'm dwelling. It just seems to me that in my area people who suffer from depression or anxiety have an easy time getting treatment. Don't get me wrong, I am not trivializing depression, I am suffering from it it right now but the second you throw BPD in there even the mental health people run away from it. Are we really that difficult?

I'm curious to know if anyone else has encountered these same issues.