I'm curious about something.

I try very hard to keep in control of my mood. I do fail, of course, having a melt down episode or whatever here and there. Sometimes more often than I'd like. But, for the most part, I think I can kind of glide along.

But, I've noticed that even when I think I'm doing okay, (being concious of my tone, trying to retain neutral body language and expressions, using steady breathing to keep calm, etc.,) this is always when someone else reacts to me in a suddenly angry/upset way.

Example, the person I'm around suddenly becomes aggitated. Or maybe they are looking at me out of the corner of their eye in a nervous way. Or suddenly it's time to argue for no reason at all, even when moments before all was well. I've actually had customer service people look right at me then suddenly call the person in line behind me forward instead (this is a thing that used to happen a lot more, but a lot less in more recent years.)

Is this just me not realizing that maybe I'm putting forward some sort of signal that something is wrong with me? Or maybe me just feeling like it's that way because I'm already not doing so great? Or maybe people just have like a sense when you're off? Has anyone else noticed anything like this?