I used to. In a manic rush I found a space that would be great. The rent was low because it was in an old mill building. I ran everything myself, taught the classes, etc. If I had kept it going I bet it would be doing well right now. In a depression, I closed the studio and left my ex for the first time. I went back to him that time, and about three years later, I left for good with my one year old son. We have a decent relationship now, and we do everything to give our son as normal a life as possible.

Anyway, I sometimes think that I would be better at owning a studio now, although I am too fat and out of shape to teach the classes. I think about how much the other studio failed, or rather how I failed at it. It was starting to attract yoga students, and when I closed, I had a $20 profit. It is small, but it was on the positive side. I felt like a fraud the whole time I owned that studio.

Right now, I don't think I could handle anything. I am on disability and I can't even keep my home clean or cook a meal.

I am nothing.