Hello, im new to the forum.
I have ALOT of problems but one i wish to discuss at the moment is the thing what is racing round my mind 24/7 every second.. Its depressing me.

4months ago i assaulted a male. In honesty it was self defence. But in the eyes of the law, well the law is not on my side. i have posotives in this problem but alot of negatives. I belive i am going to prison. Ihave a previous with assault due to anger issues, drugs, alcohol and everyday life. I am seriously considering pleading by the mental health act..

Do you think it is a good idea as i have recognised the signs of bipolar in myself i have done self tests and alot of research. Should i take this as an opertunity to get professional help? bear in mind i have a son and a job and a home and a partner. would i be throwing away my hard work or would it be the right thing?
I just feel helpless and lost im not getting any support whatsoever of anyone. My problems seem a burden to everyone i feel like im the problem so i dont bother opening up to close ones, i have learnt they can hurt you.. tug on your heart strings and trample all over your emotions, control you ( which is another issue) im trapped in everything in my life and everything in it. I feel like im missing out on life. I dont leave the flat only if nesacery.

Just so confused.