Damn damn damn, I was doing so good I don't know what happened, I really don't know what f***ing happened!! One second I'm listenig to music, the next I'm going through my droors looking for my old friend. I didn't know how much I'd miss this, and I feel so disgusting for missing it this much!!! I just started seeing red, and this sensation rised in my chest and I couldn't stop myself. I don't know why or what part of me wants to see blood drain so badly, it really frightens me! I just like blood, this may sound gross, and every time I SI I lick up all the blood. I don't know what possesses me! I can still taste it and it makes me want to do it again and again and again. Blood just stirs something in me, I wish it didn't... Gaah I feel disgusted by myself now!!