I'm glad that you were able to talk to your husband about this and he was willing to listen. I suggest that maybe you should look within yourself and ask why have you had this yearning to have a child. You've lived with these health complications for awhile now and I'm sure your doctor have told you about the complications about having a child. May I ask you if your yearning to have a child is to fill in some void? Instead of focusing on wanting to have this child but ask yourself why do you want to bear a child into this world, what are your intentions? I'm living with seizures and my driver liscense have been taken away from me, I now live by asking others for ride, I'm not able to work or to go to the school for the mean time. I look out to my surroundings and I so yearn to be normal, to be part of the crowd instead of the one who is looking in. I know my complications is nothing compared to yours but I know what it means that our health complications determines how our day will be to the next day. So please dont simply disregard about your idea of having a child. Maybe physically it may not be best but ask yourself why emotionally do you want a child, what are your intentions? Is it to fill in a emotionally void of not being able to be like so many other woman who can so easily have a child? Is it that you're hoping to carry a child so that you may not have to think about your health complications and for the first time instead of living by medications and complications you can live for something so fragile and innocent, such as a child? Could it also be that by having a child it can help you to feel alive and to even have another person care for you? So please ask yourself these questions and understand yourself even more. I wish you the best.