Thanks for the support, everyone. I am seeing a therapist and we are addressing this issue in therapy. Its still hard for me to talk about the memories and I am still fuzzy about some of them though. I'm not sure what it will take for me to fully believe them at this point. I have been in therapy for a while and with different therapists, spending a few years with each. I am worried I am in some way defective because I can not seem to move forward with this issue no matter what I do.