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Originally Posted by Wilted Rose
Hi KiKi86 and Billi leli, thanks for the welcome. It's nice to have people that I can relate too finally. Our mental health system is outrageous. I understand that you have to be somewhat stable going into that kind of intense therapy. It's 18 weeks, 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. Basically a full time job. What makes me so mad is that I asked for her help to get me ready for this and she decided that she didn't need to see me anymore. I had two months before the program started. I think that she already had it in her head that she couldn't help me so why bother trying? I don't know if that's BPD thinking. That was 5 months ago and I'm still upset about it. I'm sorry if I seem like I'm dwelling. It just seems to me that in my area people who suffer from depression or anxiety have an easy time getting treatment. Don't get me wrong, I am not trivializing depression, I am suffering from it it right now but the second you throw BPD in there even the mental health people run away from it. Are we really that difficult?
I'm curious to know if anyone else has encountered these same issues.
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Like I said, I got turned away over and over again.
I did go to a treatment program for almost ten years and it did not really help. I had gotten diagnosed there with bpd in 2001, but only had a little bit of DBT from a counselor who started it out of the goodness of her heart. She had left by the time I left.
It will be some time I fear before professionals stop treating us like we are incurable (my opinion) but I do have a little hope. They used to feel this way about other mental illnesses, too. They used to think depression was some moral problem and solved only by "snapping out of it".
Right now, I am not in any therapy and I am attempting to deal with it by saturating my mind with lots of information about emotion regulation, trauma recovery and behavioral awareness.
PC is also helping me very much to feel validated and hopeful, esp this bpd forum.
Billi