I had a rather painful session today of therapy. It was extremely hard to be/feel vulnerable in front of T. I could barely talk and when I first sat down all I could do was look at her and manage to get the words out that "its hard to talk right now".

So much mistreatment and abuse in my past and it's so hard to break the thoughts and feelings about myself that are tied to the experienced abuse.

Feeling a little more trusting and safe with my new T. That feels good for now. One small step leads to another.