I really need it. I have been off my meds

for a few weeks now. Everyone around me has noticed but me and I am getting sick of them complaining bugging me to take my meds. Makes me not want to take them even more. Even though I know I should. There sitting right next to my bed have been since i stopped taking them for no reason. Why don't i have any desire to take them. I am probably on some sort of a high right now and just enjoying the ride but I don't want to crash and burn.

So I was supposed to see my pdoc yesterday but got all the way to her office to find out I was off by 2 weeks. So now I need to wait till the 13th of July to see her. They can't get me in any sooner. I blamed my confusion on the person sitting at the front desk even though I know it wasn't his fault that I read the days wrong. I get so irritated lately at everyone ....

So what do I do ... I know its simple to just take the pills and be done with it but that doesn't stop tomorrows daily struggle with taking them.