When my Grandmother Kathy passed away May 2, 2005, the glue that was holding all of our family together unstuck that day as well. Without my Grandmother my family would have dissolved many years ago, and I may have never known many of them. But fortunately through her strength......and really cool way of manipulating, we all stuck together, even through the roughest of times.

Now that Grandma's gone a lot of relationships I once had with family no longer exist. For one example, my Grandfather (moms dad) acts as though we no longer exist. He doesn't even wish to talk to me or replies to me emails and phone messages. Another is my Aunt Susie, she's gone on with her life and has left us behind as well.

There's many more who have also dissipated along with the passing of Grandma. It feels as though I lost all my family....and even some of their sanities....in an tragic airplane accident.

That has a lot to do with my loneliness and grief as well.