I have a big dilemma, and I was hoping someone could give me thier perspective. Thanks.



Recently my T has brought up the subject of my step brother and the effects my home situation on him.

He's eleven years younger than me, so he was "lucky" enough to be extremely young while the situation between me and my step father was becoming very bad.

Now I'm twenty - one and my step brother is ten. I have had the luxury to escape my home situation, but I'm not so sure about my younger step brother. My brother, I think, is treated much better than I was, so I never really considered how my step father's instability would effect him. At the same time though, I was too worried about my personal well being to pay too much consideration.

My T told me that, my step father would gradually begin "the cycle" with my younger brother as he got older, and began to develop a sense of idenity and independence.

She told me that it was "very likely" that my brother would be exposed to the same physical and mental pressures of my step father (if not already).

This troubled me a lot. Its hard to image my younger brother going through some of the very abusive situations I did. It's even harder to imagine that that he will "escape" from the situation like I did, considering how lucky I was.

This, I believe, puts me in the middle of a very sensitive situation.

Its hard for me to sit back and do nothing, knowing that my step brother's physical and mental health may be (most likely is) in jeopardy.

At the same time, I have vowed to myself that I would never ever speak to my step father again because of his past transgressions. My pstd becomes extremely apparent when I'm even within a mile of the man.

There is another side of me that doesn't care what happens to my brother, or the rest of my family though. Deep down inside I still have this childish resentment that my step father would knock the crap out of me and do all sorts of other things, but my baby brother would leave the room unscathed.

I feel guilty knowing that another innocent child will be left in the care of my step father (who is completely un-fit).

I feel even more guilty sitting here, doing nothing, knowing how my step father is, and how my brother will probably end up.

This is exactly how the cycle of abuse continues on: some idiot like me sits around, knowing it's going on, but does nothing. This is how people like ME end up in this world.

What do I do????

I feel terrible.