One of my dad's "bequests" to me is my genetic pre-disposition to alcoholism.
He more than offset that though, teaching by example throughout his life that, for him & me anyway, "Attitude Is Everything!"

Daddy, who never conquered any of his "issues," did his best to pass on the attitude that made him an award-winning salesman with IBM during the Depression and pre-WWII years when sales "records" weren't about winners. It may have played a big part in allowing me to break through to find some happiness where my mother, also from a family in which depression and mental issues ran unchecked, was unable to get beyond the idea that she just needed to work more and whine less.

IBM, in those days, was run by T. J. Watson, Jr., my dad's mentor and personal Mid-20th-Century-style life coach. IBM's PR logo/icon, THINK, my dad wore like the family shield. I had to use company note pads, with the logo prominent, for doodling. Mr. Watson thought that was a fine idea, being a big fan of the idea that everyone ought to THINK a lot. He had my dad read books by and about successful people and collect quotations of what most inspired him. This collect was part of my Required Reading as a child, along with Little Women, King Lear, and so many others.

I THINK it was this attitude that kept me alive and enabled me to get a job, even when I was really at the bottom in my drinking days. Unfortunately--because of course I used the income to keep on drinking ...

My dad's collection disappeared mysteriously during one of his sister's visits when they reconnected & "made-up" in later years, but here's a link that will get you started. LINK... http://smartonlinesuccess.com/awesome-success-quotes/
Steep yourself in the attitudes of some of our most successful men (that's right, all men) and see whether you can take on the belief as a sort of attitude mask.

I apologize for half my life story in response to your post, but I hatehatehate that you're feeling like "a blob" and this is the only thing I've been able to come up with this morning that I have--I hope it can help.