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Originally Posted by gma45
Here I am, need to take some action. I am feeling so lost again. can't seem to motivate. I have been going to meetings other than that nothing seems to do anything for me. I am just feeling like a blob. I get along great at work everyone likes me, I work my *** off but not getting enough hours to survive so just feel like it really is just a dead end which I know is true but have nothing else at the moment. feeling so dead inside.
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oh gm45, sounds like you are in a hurting spot. intead try to look at how far you've come. i was sooo-o glad you started going to meetings and stilll now. you are giving yourself the best gift you will ever do for yourself. i'm so glad you posted. we're always here for you. the job market is so depressing right now. so i won't minimize your frustration and fear about not getting enough hours.
do you like to read? if so, allow yourself to not be motivated for now. it's ok. reading can take your mind off this. this will change and you'll be back on top. i know you realize that deep inside. if reading is not your thing try to just do something you really enjoy. i think, at least for me, that i always need everything to just be right and sometimes we put too much pressure on that/productive. cut yourself some slack and give yourself permission to just let things go for right now.
i don't know if my reply will help but i hope so. you have a lot to be proud of. 
just read roadies reply. i'm believing hers may be more uplifting. it's inspiring.
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