CandyBear, do you have secondary aplastic anemia? and do you know what caused it? it isn't genetic, is it?

if it was caused by something, externally, were tests run to find out what it was that did precipitate the secondary aplastic anemia? i realize that you did almost died. but the better way to look at that is to quit thinking about dying and start thinking about living........

i suggest that you read the positive articles about the recovery rates and if it isn't genetic, your recovery is pretty much there.

if i read all of the articles, from the neurological associations, that say silicone doesn't affect a person's body....i could get very depressed.

instead, i research everything that i can find on what will help boost my immune system.

obsessing upon the negative doesn't help me at all. and i already know my prognosis.

but i'm going to continue to look at every day positively and drop to my knees, thanking my higher power, that i have this day!!

good luck on the anxiety..........p