Thank you all for your caring words and advice. I have barely left my house since I got home from a family vacation Saturday afternoon. Monday I was out for maybe an hour and then had dinner at my grandmother's house (instead of going to dinner and a movie with friends because I am too ashamed of the way I look to be in public), Tuesday I had two doctors appointments, and Wednesday I had a haircut. Yesterday I stayed at home all day and today I honestly plan to do the same. I have so much to get done but my skin is so horrible and I just can't swallow my pride and go out in public. I am so anxious about people seeing what I look like, and even more nervous that I might actually run into someone I know and have to talk to them. I called in sick to work yesterday and did not show up to a therapist appointment with my parents (who are both very concerned about me). I talked to my derm's nurse this morning, but I guarantee they will be of no help since everything they have suggested so far has made my acne much worse. I was invited to dinner tonight with two of my friends and to a party tomorrow night and I know I will not be able to go but I wish so badly that I could. I wish I looked like myself again. I wish I was happy and carefree again. I looked through pictures of my spring break trip from senior year and I saw a completely different person. Dressed nicely, perfectly clear skin, and, most importantly, a happy face smiling and laughing with friends. I never wish to be anyone else, I just wish to be my old self again.