I was doodling on the weekend. Just scribbling while being on-line. Anyway, I had written "fat" a couple of times as well as "irritated" (which I was feeling). This morning I took a phone message for my husband and wrote it down, giving it to him.

He handed me the piece of paper this evening. My doodles were on the back. (I mean, good grief, how did I not see this?). All he said was that he was not impressed. I was speechless I felt so embarrassed.

This was NOT something he was meant to see.

I feel so vulnerable and exposed ... I feel betrayed because I betrayed myself!

And I I still feel fat and irritated