There is definetly a stigma that comes with BPD and it's as if the professionals don't even understand it. If we were so incurable then why would we work so hard at getting better? It doesn't help the we already fear abandonment, I find for myself that it's even worse when I feel abandoned by the mental health community because if they won't help me then honestly who will?

I have a story now.. A couple of days ago I phoned a counseling place. They don't have psychologists but they do help with self esteem and anxiety. I thought If I could get in there and talk things out that maybe I could get into a better state of functioning to figure out what to do. The rejected me because I was mentally ill. Yesterday I had called the mental health crisis line. The lady on the other end was ignorant and rude to me. I told her that I needed help and what was going on in my life and that I am BPD. Once I told her I was BPD that's when she really turned rude. Her response was "well what exactly do want then?" and "Do you even know what BPD is?" Then forced me to describe it. At the end of the convo she says call your family doctor that's where you start and then ended the conversation. I was kind of stunned and emotionally drained. lol, so I took a nap. When I got up I decided to call victims services which all the pyschs were telling me to call. This person was a lot nicer but couldn't help me other then giving me phone numbers including to the counseling place that had rejected me the day before and to the mental health clinic that I feel ditched me as well as another number I wasn't even going to bother calling because I felt like what's the point. I did call and the lady on the other end was the nicest stranger I have talked to in a very long time. She listened to me, let me cry and told me I had every right to be upset. The way she spoke to me, I finally felt like somebody was hearing me. I can't even describe the feeling to you. Anyway, she is going to find me a psychologist I don't think they specialize in BPD but it's a start at least. They have what's called a sliding scale so it's only going to cost me $20/session. I have lost my trust in psychologists so I'm not going to be going in there expecting this person to be just as nice. I actually feel like it will go just the opposite but the fact that I had to work so hard just to find help will make me go and give it an honest try.