Thank you bebop for reading my post and for your words of sympathy. I truly agree that no one can ever tell you how to "get over it" and I have been dealing with so much negativity from some of my family. Some seem to feel as though I should be doing better now and moving on, getting back to work. I just lost my son a little over 2 weeks ago, what is wrong with some people. It's not like I was a few weeks and didn't have time to get attach to him, I was almost 6 months and that's a long time to bond with someone. It's not as if I can just have another child and get over it and forget. I guess they are just looking at the little amount of time he was physically here with me and not the big picture of life starting in the womb not at birth. I do try to look at it as though God needed him and just let me have him for a short time but it just makes me sad too like I was cheated out of a blessing or something. But in the same note I am very thankful for being able to see him and hold him during his last moments here. I have to go now, thanks for listening.