My T is even bigger into mindfulness than yours is! I try to be mindful and do everything she suggests, but you're right, it's not easy. We've talked about what I do, but not so much. She knows, though. My former T used to say I spin my wheels all of the time, and my daughter has told me "you don't know when to move on, Mom". She was talking about relationships (friends from the past). I know my T will say to spend more time on my drawing or something away from this computer.

See, I think it IS tied in with the forum. If I'm busy with something else, I don't ruminate because I'm being mindful. But when I click on PC, or even before I do, I start thinking about my T and what I posted in whatever thread I started. Then I want to talk about it more. So the cycle starts. I wasn't thinking about her for about the last hour but now I'm back. It's like Pavlov's dog! When I think about T other times, my immediate thought is that I have to post it on PC! So, yes--a little addictive I'd say. When my T asked if I go on my forum every night I said yes. What I didn't say is that whenever I'm home and my H isn't on the computer, I'm also on the forum. I could be drawing now, but here I am, thinking about my T.

I know you're not judging me, Chris. I always value your straightforward, common sense approach.