I'm an abuse survivor and I'm taking care of my body and claiming it (trying to).

When I was younger I abused my body to hide from the painful emotions. I drank and did some light drugs. That's not my life now.....

Today there is a big part of me that still feels 'damaged' but other pieces I'm able to take ownership for.

I challenged my body with a natural/calm hypnobirthing childbirth and I succeeded. I owned the birth experience of my child not the hospital, Dr. or the Nurses.

I challenged my body with eating right and lost a lot of weight and I'm no longer obese (I was chubby, fat, overweight). I don't have high blood pressure anymore and I don't have high cholesterol. I'm looked at by others in my community for inspiration.

I challenged my body with physical endurance and I'm running my second half marathon later this year (I started running a little over a year ago).

I'm challenging my body with mental/physical endurance by now training for my first full marathon in November (if no injuries - fingers crossed).


What I am failing at:

My inability to control/maintain my eating. Having a couple binges a week and as a result I am now gaining weight I don't have any 'junk' in the house but I can make a go of peanut butter for example. Excess fat and calories = weight gain no matter what the food is that I eat.

Getting control of the emotions behind the binges. I hope I can achieve this while not gaining any more weight. This is key for me.

How do/did you claim your body after a lifetime of abuse?