(((AvidReader))) - my goodness you didn't come across as selfish. All these emotions are normal and a process you need to work through. It wasn't possible to stay in your house with his contribution or buy a smaller house?? My youngest teacher said - "its not the size of a house that makes a home", but I do understand how how it must be to have kids in an apartment - quite the adjustment. Hugs to you and your children.