does anyone else ever feel this way?

I feel like I am locked inside myself. I have a personality but it never shines through. I live in daydreams and fantasies, if i could just do what I think, darnit I think I would be so much happier but it is like I won't give myself a chance. I constantly obsses over what people think, will i do a good job, will they like me....its so aggravating...

I look back at most of my life and most of it is just me walking on egg shells all the time, trying to fit in, I never took the time to actually get to know myself.

Now wherever I am, I always feel like I should be somewhere else and I am so emotionally numb that I feel so disconnected from even my best of friends...but I can't help but be disconnected....where is the joy? where is the passion? where is the inspiration? The love? anything?