I'm sorry that I don't really have answers but wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.

Working out who you are and your sexuality is always an extremely hard thing. Personally, I believe that there is a spectrum of sexuality -people don't necessarily always 'fit' into categories of straight or gay.

Give it time, and take it slow Eventually you should be able to find something you are comfortable with - whether that be attraction to only male, only female, personalities (independent of gender) etc.