I had a bestfriend kill himself a little over a month ago. No matter how bad you feel, you don't even begin to know how much it screwed up all of his friends and even our school. Kids who didn't even know him were balling in the bathroom. He was my bestfriend an he was the only one I could talk to. I'm struggling without him here, and I don't want to live either. I don't know what I'm going to do wihout him here to help me all the time. I miss him more than anyhing, and would give my own life to see him for 5 more minutes. Your life could be worse, cause mine does.