Thanks for the posts, I never take things......as if I have to do anything from either of you. Your advice helps me tremendously every time you respond. I am finding it tough not being younger I think. I never had this much trouble starting over in the past but there seemed to always be a man involved and this time I am not ready to just settle for anything! like you say... been there done that! ha! today was a bit better I took some action in the down sizing department which helped me out a bit. Think! is a good one as long as I am thinking positive. Having moved from the place I lived for 30 years has left me really lacking in the close friend area. Going to meeting does help it is just different than what I am used to. BARS! I am not giving in or up!!! Thing have to get better I am worth it! Thanks Roadie and Madisgram and everyone else that reads my ranting!