I kind of screwed things up pretty bad with her. For a few months I just kept trying to talk to her, pushing my problems on her, and treated her like a therapist, not a girlfriend. I was depressed and miserable all the time. I pushed her so far away that we broke up. I know its not 100% my fault, but most of it was. As soon as I lost her I was devastated, and realized the mistake I did, and asked if we could try again. That is where we are now. She wants to take things very very slow which is frustrating, but understoon. All I want to do is shower her with love and attention but it is too much too soon. I have been writing her poems almost every day. If you look in the creative section there are a bunch that I have written in the past few days. She is supportive, but doesnt really want to hear much right now. I think that will change in time. I am on medication now for the depression and anxiety which is helping me focus on my personality disorder. I am so calmed when she is around, and get all anxious until I get to see her again. Sorry, I rambled. I tend to do that when I talk about her.

Mike