well if you recognise that you are jealous don't you at least realise that is unfair. your wife is entitled to do something without "owing" you anything isn't she? why do you resent her having something for herself without you getting something. that's what children do. "why does timmy get sweets and i don't! it's not faaaaair"

i know these seem like harsh words but i think you are being unfair to your w.