Perhaps you need to stop worrying yourself sick (procrastinating) and get yourself to the doctor. I am a fellow procrastinator too.

Take the fasting glucose test and ask the doc to do a HB1ac blood test.
Then you can rule it in or out. The tests are not hard.

Just by doing something will ease your mind and your can take it from there.

When I start to diddle around something it makes life harder.

Just do it hun.......