I broke up with my boyfriend of 4yrs 3 weeks ago, I'm kind of still shocked that we'll never sleep in the same bed again, that he's never gonna walk through the door again, living without him is like living a whole new life style because i did everything with him and hes gone, i dont regret my desicion, but its still so painfull, at night things get quiet and all of my emotions hit me like a ton of bricks, i dont have any really good friends, im working on making new friends but i feel so alone, at night i feel miles and miles away from anyone, im so lonley im just hoping this pain wont last for too long, on top of everything im having money problems because i dont have his income to help pay the rent, im just trying to hang on