I don't really connect with people either and I never really have. I've had a difficult life but paste that damn smile all over my face. No one would ever get why I'm bleeding on the inside in pain because my emotions don't match. I guess it is called the borderline mask...hiding the terrible fearful emotions that are trapped. I know it is like murder to step out and try to socialize, but it is not worth it to try to make friends by being someone you don't really feel like being. That brings on the indentity crisis issue. I'll be who you want me to be.