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Originally Posted by Confusedinomicon
If you take an abnormal psych class in uni, they will tell you that it is so easy to diagnose yourself with disorders after you read about it. It's also easy to convince yourself of something after you've read about it. (I think this may explain the hypomania thing, I don't think it was real hypomania)
I had a "night depression" before, but it was often me falling apart at night after putting up a front all day, and it was prolonged, like you described. I would be fine enough during the day but by the end I would feel totally stressed out and break down. I had a lot of issues switching from home life to dorm life, too.
I have anger problems and a short fuse. Having a pet and being responsible for it + medication has seemingly helped with that.
You haven't really described a mix state or dysphoric mania. Or maybe it's more like a low-key form? Mixed states are always the most dangerous for me. I usually have energy to want to hurt myself and fairly depressed. It's not like I'm happy but feel depressed. I consider that a mild depression for me...but I'm also not bothered by occasionally having suicidal thoughts.
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Yeah, I'm pretty sure I induced that episode myself. But I feel like if I were normal, I wouldn't be able to do that, even if it wasn't hypomania or if I'm not bipolar. That's interesting that you say that what I described doesn't sound like a mixed state to you. I often feel depressed, anxious, and sometimes happy all at once, which made me think it was a mixed state. It's hard for me to differentiate between anxiety and symptoms sometimes associated with bipolar. The general consensus seems to be that I probably don't have bipolar disorder, and if I do it would be lower on the spectrum like Secretum described. Thanks.