I think that is a lot of progress that you didn't cut. It is hard getting rid of something we have grown so attached to, I know I still have a feew hidden, but I have put them in places that are difficult to get to so I rarely even find them, maybe you can try msking it hard to get to until you can let go completly. I'm not really great at giving advice so take it for what it's worth. And congrats on not cutting thats always a good thing.
Chippie