((((KT)))) i am sorry for your pain. And for your loss. I can relate. I lost my fiance 3 years and 3 months ago and I miss him sometimes. A lot. We were best friends too so when I am just scared or feeling blue or especially when something is funny and I really want to share it with him and cannot, it hurts.

My T and I talked about it on occasion but it was too painful and I would start sobbing. The grief is still there. I also know there are reasons why it has been hard to move on perhaps deeper issues - which I really hope to be able to address in the coming months.

I really miss him but I know he is not coming back. And this being alone all the time isnt working for me anymore. I feel like it is time to move ahead but I am a little stuck. I dont quite know what to do. That is what I am hoping to work on in T.

I can completely relate as well to the financial concerns and just holding on. That makes things feel a million times worse when you are worried about finances. Do you have a friend or family member that you can turn to?

Hugs to you...
Rose