stupid, and what i despise myself for

i work so hard

get promotions, live normal people sort of life

but i still mess up ... note, i'm not swearing here

i do try hard not to let it all slip

but then i have days like today i cant deal with the LOUD people the people i work with who are lovely but they FLAP and they SCREECH over their own work problems

i just need peace or a bit of quiet and i get home n try more with my flatmates why do i feel like i am gonna break.

im sorry