I want to thank everyone for the support, thoughts and wishes for me during one of the biggest events of my life...ending long term therapy which included massive trauma work.

I saw my therapist for the last time last evening. Whew, that was hard! I've tried to put into words what his presence in my life has meant to me. I really can't. I couldn't compare him to a parent for sure, or any family member for that matter. I guess he would represent what a good therapist should be...a mentor, guide, inspiration and friend.

I'd known for quite some time that we would be ending. I'd wanted to end about a year ago, but am so glad I didn't! So much healing took place in this last time. Anyhow, I had good time to prepare for ending therapy, well as much as one can prepare for that.

When I found out the final date a few months ago, I went through a very difficult time. It felt too huge for me. I felt that I could "lose" therapy or therapist, but not both at the same time. I called other therapists and spoke with several (some very good). Something about doing that instilled in me that I DO HAVE CHOICES. I always try to see that I have choices in my world. I might not be able to choose what happens to me, but I can choose how I respond to it. Knowing that allowed me to continue on with my plan...graduation from therapy altogether.

To make a long story short, it was a very meaningful time of sharing, giving and ending. In feeling such a peace with this, I'm more confident than ever before that my therapy was truly successful in the ways that it needed to be for me.

I'm a survivor of long term childhood trauma and abuse. I will always have issues that I'm going to deal with and yes, most of those I didn't ask for. Therapy helped me so much to name those issues through awareness and understanding, then to learn coping skills that I never learned. Therapy didn't obliterate what happened to me so I will always have that to "deal" with. I know if I would've waited for everything to be perfect, I would've been waiting and in therapy for forever. My therapist and I feel that I've learned what I need to know to continue on with my life in a functional, giving way...a way that doesn't come close to resembling where I was when I walked through that door. A shattered shell of a person entered the world of therapy. Now a survivor walks out.

I've been many places in my life, alot of them I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, but I'm so glad that committed therapy was one of them. I've made a few good choices in my life; beginning, continuing AND ending therapy being of them.

I don't think that I could've done HALF as well in my healing and in ending therapy if it weren't for PC and the wonderful people who care about me and don't hesitate to show it.

THANK YOU.

KD

PS - I think this represents good therapy, but also represents how much PC can help and influence a person in growth in the journey. I've never been alone, not once, since I found PC and y'all.